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I feel like I’m standing still, yet I know things in my life are moving. I guess it’s the fact that I’m not working on the things I want to be working on that’s really starting to get to me. My thesis is something I need to start, and I don’t know how to tackle it (or I’m afraid to). But, at least I’ve finally chosen a different field after trying to study the Brexit-Troubles nexus in Northern Ireland.

The next item on my agenda is my driving licence, which I know will be incredibly useful going forward. Yet, it will take up cognitive space and time that I could spend on cybersecurity and IT learning.

Then there’s my work. I have one small client, one important client, and one unreliable client. They aren’t exactly what I want to do, and all require me to learn new skills as I go. But they are not enough to comfortably sustain myself and are not what I want to be doing with my time. Yet, they are the most convenient options at the moment.

On top of this, I’m working on getting into a rhythm and doing more sport. I realise these are long-term projects, and I shouldn’t be too harsh on myself for not being able to achieve what I want just yet. All I really should do is keep at it, and eventually, come summer, I will be able to work on the things I want to be working on, hopefully also making money from them.

Yet, why am I in so much doubt and find it hard to concentrate on my tasks, let alone get out of bed? Is it because I shrink back from adversity? Are other personal issues in my love and family life the main causes of this doubt? I don’t know. For now, I will just keep going. As the saying goes, ‘How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time.’

Ok. So I just finished an episode of Star Trek: Strange New Worlds, great show(very Star Trek), and it blew my socks off! So to speak. It was a cross over episode that with another Series called Star Trek: Lower decks, where two of the main characters travel back in time(about 120 years) and meet their heros. It was so well done, and a brilliant blend of cartoon and serious show. Both in tone and in form. As in it was partially animated.

So I am sitting here typing this up with glee. I think if you’re a fan of Star Trek it makes it all the better, but it’s good on it’s own. There was also a cool quote by one of the characters(a reblious old lady who is actually thouands of years old and the chief engineer), well it’s actually her quoting someone who she knew who is also a real historical figure who aledgely said this:

“I pretended to be somebody I wanted to be until finally I became that person. Or he became me.” – Cary Grant

{She miss quotes him slightly and i have a hunch she never actually knew him cannonically. But maybe that makes it all the better.}

Take care,
B.

Hello,

I’m Brendan. I’m a digital native but only now starting to learn more technical skills. I’m trying to do it all at once… Let’s see how this will work out. My first order of business is to learn how to figure out how to make and run my own website and domain. This also works well with my new client that needs me to run their website… gulp.

In other news, I have started a Replit 100 days of Code to get to grips with Python. So far, it’s stuff I already know since I’m not completely new to it, but I hope by the end, I have a sturdy base to jump off from.

Then I want to start some basic networking and cybersecurity soon. My ultimate goal is to have an understanding good enough to self-host for personal reasons and create a library for all to use as I strongly believe in the idea that we should share everything and be able to all be wealthy together, with everyone bringing their skills to the table. I also feel a deep discomfort with large corporations looking over our shoulders at what we are doing and fencing off knowledge and material with fences built of IP planks. Also, I want to work in Information Security…

OK, I think that’s enough for now… ciao, I guess.👋