I feel like I’m standing still, yet I know things in my life are moving. I guess it’s the fact that I’m not working on the things I want to be working on that’s really starting to get to me. My thesis is something I need to start, and I don\u2019t know how to tackle it (or I\u2019m afraid to). But, at least I\u2019ve finally chosen a different field after trying to study the Brexit-Troubles nexus in Northern Ireland.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The next item on my agenda is my driving licence, which I know will be incredibly useful going forward. Yet, it will take up cognitive space and time that I could spend on cybersecurity and IT learning.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Then there’s my work. I have one small client, one important client, and one unreliable client. They aren’t exactly what I want to do, and all require me to learn new skills as I go. But they are not enough to comfortably sustain myself and are not what I want to be doing with my time. Yet, they are the most convenient options at the moment.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
On top of this, I\u2019m working on getting into a rhythm and doing more sport. I realise these are long-term projects, and I shouldn\u2019t be too harsh on myself for not being able to achieve what I want just yet. All I really should do is keep at it, and eventually, come summer, I will be able to work on the things I want to be working on, hopefully also making money from them.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yet, why am I in so much doubt and find it hard to concentrate on my tasks, let alone get out of bed? Is it because I shrink back from adversity? Are other personal issues in my love and family life the main causes of this doubt? I don’t know. For now, I will just keep going. As the saying goes, ‘How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time.’<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I feel like I’m standing still, yet I know things in my life are moving. I guess it’s the fact that I’m not working on the things I want to be working on that’s really starting to get to me. My thesis is something I need to start, and I don\u2019t know how to tackle […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-21","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-blog"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/forbiddenlibrary.eu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/forbiddenlibrary.eu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/forbiddenlibrary.eu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/forbiddenlibrary.eu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/forbiddenlibrary.eu\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=21"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/forbiddenlibrary.eu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":22,"href":"https:\/\/forbiddenlibrary.eu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21\/revisions\/22"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/forbiddenlibrary.eu\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=21"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/forbiddenlibrary.eu\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=21"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/forbiddenlibrary.eu\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=21"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}